i zig. u zag.

most people front about principle. bringing to the table a lot of talk, followed by little to no action... and that's ok. it's what kids/ people do. they try things. they go through phases. they invent causes to rebel against. but, for the record, i myself, don't wanna fight. it's a god damn hassle, not to mention emotionally exhausting and isolating, going against the grain of the system. believe me, i would be absolutely content with .... errrr.. content? but if you do not, wait.., if you simply cannot work with this system.. well, not only does it not work for you, it kicks you while you're down..., it does it's damned hardest to filter you through some sort of process, that eventually breaks you... and in a battlefield of life, ain't nuth'n sadder than the sight of an amputated spirit. i see potential die every fuking day man.. people just standing around, dicks in their hands, just pissing into the wind.

i'm no rebellious kid, experimenting cauz i'm curious, i'm a fuking adult, that is really starting to fully understand what it means being the minority, struggling because of my principles that cannot be bought by money, stability, etc. etc. nor do i have ANY desire to be lured with this bullshit they call the "american dream". american dream is nothing more than a fuking flavor of ben & jerry's ice cream to me. it is a damn good flavor though. ummm.. YEAH, i do contemplate all the time, ALL THE TIME, going another direction, who doesn't think about living a life that doesn't remotely resemble their own? but in the end, your principles, wrong or right, is all you have... and when i'm no longer apart of this blip we call life, i wanna make sure the fingerprint i leave in this life is fuking intact. there is no right way. it doesn't fuking matter, until your way is deemed wrong, oh god, then u deal with assholes dishing out what's "right", it's so fuking dumb. and people just don't fuking get it.. with capitalism, it's all about money... and when it's all about money, it's never about the people. i'm struggling, hard.., and that's so fuking dumb if u think about it.. struggling for no fuking reason.., not by choice, or curiosity, but for having the capacity to zig while everybody else robotically zags. dig? ...